I want to CHANGE.
But I can't.
I changed my blog, I changed my profile pic, but I can't change my life.
I wish there was just a button that wrote "change".
And then, everything changed.
I would write my thoughts there, but the subtitle wouldn't be the same.
I wouldn't feel lonely.
And I say feel because I'm not sure I'm REALLY lonely.
I may have lots of friends and just not understand it.
But the truth is that for better or worse, I NEED a change.
And I don't care what it would be,
just a change.
Oh, that monday is Valentine's Day.
Do you want to know how much I care?
To be precise, I don't give a fuck.
There's nobody to share it with.
Not to mention that the whole thing is absolutely commercial.
Can you imagine how many cards, chocolates and all this foolish stuff they think it's important.
This is a conversation between me and a friend:
"Tommorow? Let's see... I'll wake up at 7.30, put on my new sweater, go to school, have fun with my friends, go home and sleep.
What, you expected something different?
What's tommorow?
Valentine's day?
I'm not interested, thank you. *closing the phone*
OH FUUUUUCK! ANOTHER YEAR SINGLEEEEE! SCREW THIS FUCKING VALENTINE! *breaking mum's vase*"
I bet that when I go to school on Monday, all the couples-"in-love" will be hugging and kissing and generally, exchanging gifts.
Ok, I admit that I would like to exchange gifts with my boyfriend, kissing him, hugging him, if I had one.
But I would do it every day.
Because this is love.
But does it really exist?
Well, it does.
And boys DO fall in love.
How do I know?
Look what I discovered yesterday:
http://www.nygirlofmydreams.com/
Sooo romantic...
Wish that happened to me...
But...
I should just keep dreaming.
xxxx,
Broken Heart.
